Adult video chat like icuii
ICUII, one of these software tools, had a chat area for gay men.
In this area, I found other men that I’d chat with about my fetishes, and eventually, I’d sniff poppers and masturbate with them on camera.
Back on ICUII, I saw one man regularly smoking crystal meth and developed a rapport with him.
I eventually invited him from Oakland, California to San Diego to “teach” me to smoke crystal meth.
We took a road trip to Palm Springs while he visited, and we used crystal meth heavily while we were there, also engaging in anonymous sex with several men.
The surprising thing to me was that from the first time I smoked meth, the attraction didn’t seem to be the “high” I got from the smoking, but the compulsion to always smoke more and blow bigger and better clouds.
One issue that the audience brought up, and an issue that David, Terry, and I are all seeing in the addicts we treat, is the role that sexualized video chat rooms are playing in “chemsex” addiction.
Numerous people shared their stories with us both during and after the event, including a former Navy officer who’d just written a letter detailing his video and chemsex experience as part of his 9 step amends.
Thanks to the buffer of the internet, they did not have to become emotionally or physically vulnerable as they might in a different setting.
A few months ago I had the pleasure of speaking at a Meth and Sex Addiction public forum in Palm Springs, CA.
The three-person panel—myself, David Fawcett, and Terry Gatewood—spoke to an attentive and participatory audience of around 100 addicts and clinicians about the fusion of meth use and sexual behaviors.
At the same time, because everyone in these chat rooms was there to use meth and masturbate, there was a sense of bonding and being part of something intimate.
In his amends letter, the addict also discusses how he never used drugs until after he retired from the Navy, and says that when he started, it was only in conjunction with his online sexual behaviors.